The butterfly

img_0587November 7, 2016

I believe that out of all the insects in the world the butterfly is the most mysterious, intricate and beautiful creature of all.  A butterfly represents growth, change and freedom.

A few months ago I was working in the yard and a yellow, blue, purple and green butterfly soured above my head.  For a moment time stood still and I wanted to capture this beautiful creature and freeze time.

I wondered what kind of caterpillar it must have been?    I wonder how long it struggled and how badly it wanted to break free.  I think in many ways we are wanting to be butterflies. Sometimes we’re just too afraid to leave our cocoon.  The caterpillar is a safe place to be.  It is one color, it stands alone and not many people notice it.  However, when the caterpillar decides to become a butterfly, amazing things start to happen.

There are about 17,500 species of butterflies throughout the world.  The exact number of butterflies is not known because there are so many different species.  It’s amazing how similar they are , but yet also so very different.

The butterfly represents love, peace, flight and most of all transformation.  I believe that all woman at one time or another dream of being a butterfly.  Mariposa is the term for butterfly in Spanish.  It’s meaning has a significance that creates fortitude and strength.

I have chosen to be a butterfly over the next 15 months.  While Kailee is on her mission she is going to change and evolve into the most beautiful butterfly that our family has ever seen.  Since she in the only female besides me in our family, I want to also become a butterfly with her.  I have set some goals that I want to accomplish before she gets home.  I believe that if I continue to achieve those goals that hopefully she will evolve with me.   A butterfly is only as good as the people it associates with.  I believe the more friends a butterfly has, the more beautiful is will become.  I also feel that the more the butterfly watches other butterflies, the stronger it will become.  The longer it stays in its cocoon, the more ability it has to face the world around it.  If a butterfly breaks through too soon, the cycle is interrupted and nature cannot create the beautiful creature that it was meant to be.

I believe that Kailee’s mission is the pupa or chrysalis stage of the butterfly.   The caterpillar’s structure is rearranged and broken down and its wings, body and legs start to develop into an adult butterfly.  To become a butterfly is not an easy task.  Their will be weather issues, food situations that may affect its growth and maybe even tiny delays in its development.  However, once these issues have been addressed and the butterfly is strong enough to break through the cocoon, a remarkable metamorphosis  will take place.

kailee has experienced friend issues, an unexpected tornado, bug bites and allergic reactions to long haired cats.  All of these little interruptions are helping her to become the butterfly she is meant to be.

Next Spring when I am in my yard planting the first flowers of the season, I know a butterfly will pass my way.  Butterflies are the heaven scent kisses of an angel.  When that butterfly passes over my head, I will know that the time is closer to seeing  Kailee again.  The  butterfly will remind me of the the picture of the young girl in the lavender fields that hung above her head when she was a little girl.  A butterfly kiss comes from heaven and when butterflies unite all of the angels in heaven take flight.  When butterflies and angels meet, it is the beginning of something magical.

When I go to bed tonight, I will dream of the butterfly that I want to be , knowing that my daughter has already taken flight.  Today my caterpillar will hold deep to the values that I have been taught my entire life.  When the time is right, the wings will begin to form and the strength of the butterfly will far surpass the test of time.

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Author: lisahogge

I am mother of five, a grandmother of 5. a wife, a swim teacher, yoga teacher, Sales Lead at Chico's Boutique in Orem, Utah and a friend to all. I love warm baths, hot yoga, mountain runs and I pretty much exist on diet coke. I love to be around people, travel and eat at fancy restaurants. However, my favorite thing to do is to just be with my family( especially my significant other❤️)

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