img_0353With Halloween around the corner,  my thoughts have gone back to the Lion.  When my twin boys were three I dressed them up like lions.  It was probably my favorite costume of all time.

I used to teach pre-school to 3 year olds.  I have taught 1000’s  of 3 yr olds how to swim.  I have a 3 year old granddaughter that just melts my heart.

There’s  something magical  in the number 3.  “Once, twice, three times a lady” Lynol Richies famous song.  “Tap your heels 3 times and you will be home”  from the Wizard Of Oz.  Three wise men came to the Savior when he was born in Bethlehem.  There is so much significance in the number 3.

In the LDS religion, all of our leadership positions have 3 members.  Our God head is composed of the Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost.  The numbe 3 has great significance in our lives.

Today I am sending a package to my missionary daughter.  I made 3 loafs of banana bread for her.  One for her and her companion.  One for her friend Kate who feeds her every Monday and has become her second mom, and one for her to give away.

Today I am also sending Kailee a stuffed animal that is a LION.   This Lion has great meaning in my life.  It is very hard for me to give this Lion away.  However, Kailee asked for it , and so I will send it to her.

When Kailee’s twin brothers left to go on a mission,  I bought two Lions at Deseret Book.  When Blake went into the MTC , I sent one with him.  He gave the Lion away to a Sister Missionary who was homesick.  When Dylan left on his mission I gave the other one to him.  He left in on his bed with a beautiful note that told me how much he loved me and he wanted me to keep it.

This stuffed Lion has become my little friend.  There have been way too many nights when tears have fell upon his main.  I have said more prayers holding this lion than I ever have in my entire life.

Today this lion will leave my home and go to North Carolina.  When I get to hug Sister Hogge again, she will be holding this Lion.

The Lion is the king of the jungle.  The Lion is a symbol of courage, strength and fortitude.  In the movie “The Lion King” we learn of the circle of life.  May my daughter take this Lion and hold it as dearly as I have.  I know that her prayers are more righteous than my prayers, so I know the Lord will pour out many blessings upon her as she also holds this Lion in her arms.   Courage is one man being braver than another man,  and not caring what the other man may think.  Courage, is declaring truth in a troubled world.  Courage is putting one foot in front of the other, and not looking back.  Be brave my angel missionary and know, that strength comes in the number THREE❤️.







A dream is a wish your heart makes when it’s fast asleep.  Our dreams can become our reality if first & foremost we follow our heart.  We’re all born with the light of Christ, and that light, as dim or as bright as it is, needs to be our constant guide, especially during times of uncertainly.  We have to seek for hope, faith & especially CHARITY when we’re trying to accomplish our goals and make our dreams actually become a reality.  Without CHARITY we are nothing.  We are puffed-up and we become self-centered and prideful.  However, if we have CHARITY, we truly have the pure love of Christ, which should be our driving force for achieving a oneness with the Savior.

I have learned through trial and error, and mostly error, that I don’t do so well when I lose the ability to seek for charity.  I tend to lack, for the better word patience, kindness, unselfishness & unconditional love.  When I lose these qualities, my ability to have charity dissipates.  I also lack compassion, which I believe is one of Christ’s greatest attributes.

When Daren & I were first dating he would play this song for me all the time when we would drive up Logan Canyon.  The song was called “The Time Has Come” by England Dan & John Fort Coley.  The chorus goes something like this:  “I’ve got this dream inside of me, and it knows no boundary, maybe its too big to satisfy, but I know now the time has come to ‘TRY’.    I think that the key word in the phrase is “TRY”.  If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again.  I believe the most successful people have tried and failed and tried & failed more times than they like to admit.  But it’s in the perseverance & the determination to never give up , the fortitude to press forward with a brightness of hope, and the pure love of Christ that determines our true destiny.

Dreams are a universal human experience that can be described as a state of consciousness characterized by sensory, cognitive and emotional occurrences during sleep.   Dreams are different for each of us, but sometimes we have dreams that direct us to something spiritual that the Lord will want us to do.   Sometimes he speaks to us in dreams, visions, thoughts & feelings.  God cares about each of us.  He will listen and will answer our prayers in his own way and time.  One of the most important things we have to learn is “interpretation” or how to listen to what He wants us to do.

Hyrum & Mercy smith who were related to Joseph Smith both had dreams  about marriage and loved ones who had parted.  Because of these dreams and the relationship that Joseph had with Hyrum,  the doctrine of eternal marriage was later recorded in the D&C 132.  Also, it was discovered that the saints could stand in for proxy for a dead person and perform baptisms & marriage sealings for those who have passed on before us.   It’s amazing to think that because of a worthy sister & her husbands dreams, that personal revelation was given to Joseph Smith the prophet about eternal marriage, which is one of the most profound revelations in The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints today.

I think that somewhere in this incredibly vast & far reaching universe, there are dreams waiting to come true.  Not only for us as individuals, but for those who we care deeply about.  It’s in the desire to become better, stronger, wiser & in seeing clearly the path that the Lord has for each of us.

I think seeing is believing that we can pursue our dreams.  Each of us need to make sure that the connection with God is clear & precise & that all obstacles that get in the way of these dreams,  can be removed.

To each person this creative ability to talk with God & hear his voice clearly is like finding the right radio station to listen to.  When you find that station, listen it over & over & over again until your spirit yearns to find this connection.  This higher source can become as real as knowing that the sun will come out tomorrow & the moon will be in the night sky watching over us as we create a beautiful place to lay our head to rest.

the gift of dreaming has meant more to me than my talent for absorbing conscious knowledge’.  ~Albert Einstein~


Yesterday was my 36th wedding anniversary.  It’s crazy to think that that I have lived with Daren even longer than the age I was when I had my youngest child Kailee.  Marriage is like a Merry-Go-Round.  You get on , hold on tight and where it stops is often an indication of your inner spiritual strength.

We get married for lots of reasons, each reason  is important enough to make this life changing,  life altering decision.  When it’s the first time, you honestly have no idea the ride it will take you on.  For me, the reasons were very spiritually rooted and had everything to do with loving & trusting God enough to know that eventually I could learn to love this person almost as much as I loved HIM.

In doing research on the number 36 I have learned these incredibly important things:  The number 36 represents enlightening  your spirit with love & peace and surrounding yourself with people who bring out the best in you physically, emotionally and spiritually.  I believe that my number one goal for my marriage this year is spiritual enlightenment which has everything to do with keeping your covenants.

When I went through the temple for the first time as a 21 year old very naive and very impressionable young girl, I had no idea the road it would take me on.   I thought that once I made this life changing decision that it would be easier.  It wasn’t easier at all.  Daren & I have extremely strong personalities & we can butt heads to say the least on so many levels.  However, through 36 years of watching this incredible man that I am married to become more, humble, more teachable, more loving, & more kind,  I know that covenants are real.  They’re so individual, but are also bound with eternal principles,  marriage being one of them.

I’m a true believer that the Lord teaches line upon line, precept upon precept.   For the sole reason that marriage, like any other commitment, requires a lot of hard work.  Anything that you work hard at and are committed to, eventually will bring positive results.  It’s in remembering that life is complicated & eternal principles are learned through obedience and holding on to the iron rod.  There are going to be days that really are going to be downright MESSY.

I believe that besides our relationship with God, our relationship with our eternal companion should be the one that we treasure the most.   By small & simple things, great things shall come to pass.  My marriage to Daren is by far the greatest investment that I have ever made.  Because the investment is so great, the road can be treacherous at times.   But it is through the gut wrenching, pain defying moments that test our love, that we truly know if it can stand the test of time.

Love is patient, love is kind, love is forgiving & love can be blind.   But love at it’s best can outweigh all the rest.  It’s constant & true and it can withstand the storms and the set-backs that are a part of LIFE.   I have learned that some of my most growing  experiences come when God just lets it rain.  The good news is:    After the rain comes rainbows & rainbows are one of God’s most beautiful creations.

I already know that 2020 is going to be hard, I can feel it in every fiber of my being.  But the hard part only comes when we try to do it alone.  When we can clasp hand in hand and hold on tight, the Merry-GO-Round  becomes an adventure, instead of a soul searching & sometimes painful experience.

I think my goal for 2020 is to just try & enjoy the ride, and if the road gets rocky, we can both learn to either remove the rocks, go around them, or maybe on the really good days, just learn to drill a hole right through them.   And just for today,  knowing that God does love me & he does love Him, is enough to get me through the next hopefully thirty more years doing this thing  “AMAZING THING” called MARRIAGE.






Since February is more than halfway over & we still have at least six more weeks of cold weather, I’ve realized that I have to stop blaming the weather for my moodiness.  For some reason my body dislikes being cold, it’s extremely tired of snow & requires way more sunlight than February likes to produce.  However,  I believe its a copout to blame too many things on the weather.

What does the word blame actually mean to most people?  It’s a term we seem to use as frequently as drinking a glass of water.  I was late to work because there was a wreck.   My car was on empty & I wasn’t the last one to drive it.  I flunked my English test because I stayed up all night fighting with my boyfriend,  so he’s the reason I will never graduate from college.

In this high tech , fast paced, tweeting, texting, & instagramming world we live in, we tend to constantly blame everyone & everything for all of our problems.

In the song “The Living Years” by Mike & The Mechanics” it speaks of crumpled bits of paper filled with imperfect thought, stilted conversations, I’m afraid that’s all we’ve got.  Say it loud, say it clear, you can listen as well as you hear.  It’s too late  when we die, to admit we don’t see eye to eye.
Sometimes the ones we love the most are the ones we want to blame the most,  but blame can only go so far if we’re the ones actually making the mistake.  We all make mistakes  & have our share of  imperfections, but when our mistakes keep repeating themselves over & over again, then the only person we can truly blame is ourselves.

I believe that example is our master teacher.  If we exercise everyday,  hopefully some of our children will want to do the same.  If we eat chocolate everyday,  it’s most likely our children will like chocolate also.  Our thoughts produce our actions, and many of our behaviors come from our thoughts.

I am a survival swim teacher for young children & babies.  I have been teaching young children how to be safe in the water for seventeen seasons.  A lot of  research has been done on water fear and how it truly is a leaned behavior.  Water fear leads to anxiety, which is also a learned behavior.  If we want our children to be calm in the water,  we have to remain calm ourselves.  If we want our children to feel confident, safe, and secure in the water, we have to have a positive relationship with the water.   Most of us want to raise a generation stronger than the one before.  In order to do this we must overcome our fears, or at least learn to keep them at a distance from our children.  If our children see our fears take over our lives, they will be afraid also.  Then, when the natural man takes over, they will start to blame their parents as they grow older.  It’s a vicious cycle & sometimes seems very difficult to break.
If we want our spouses to be kind, we must be kind ourselves.  Every time we act out on fear, anxiety is taking over & it becomes very difficult to find peace.  The stillness often comes when we turn to Christ & let him ease our burden.  He is willing to catch us with open arms if we just learn to trust HIM.
There is a saying that goes somewhat like this;

Faith is not about everything being ok.  Faith is about being ok no matter how things turn out.

I believe that somewhere in between blame & accountability, we have to move forward with faith and know that true change begins when we built a one on one relationship with Christ.   Our ability to love & forgive others becomes stronger,  when we learn how to love more, judge less & forgive more often.




I have set a few small goals for the year 2020,  one of them is to write in my blog once a month.  It has been an extremely long time since I have taken the time to put my thoughts down in any kind of chronological order.  I love to write, but it is also extremely difficult for me to sit still long enough to get my thoughts down in a way that truly expresses how I am feeling in my heart.

I decided that this month I would write about accountability.  I thought I would start with the first letter of the alphabet & pick a word that I need to work on.  Accountability came to mind & it struck me like lightening that I wanted to understand more about the word accountability & become more accountable for who I am as a person.  I want to be more aware of my accountability as a daughter of God, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, a grandmother, a co-worker, a business owner,  a yoga enthusiasts, a friend & also a neighbor.

Accountability is an important word and has several  different meanings that I would like to address.  My first & foremost concern for being accountable is my relationship with God.  He is the most important person in my life.  He is the one who I try to love the most, talk to the most, have probably at times hurt the most, but definitely is the one I want to please the most when I lay my head to rest at night.

I decided about 10 years ago, that God is truly the only person that I am accountable for at the end of each day.  It seemed easy at first, to think that I really didn’t care what people thought of me, because deep down inside I really do care what people think.  I care a lot about my relationships with people and & I probably care too much of how others perceive me.

However,  I am the happiest when I am trying to please God & not worry so much about pleasing the natural man.  It hasn’t been easy & it’s definitely a work in progress.  Yet deep down inside, I have learned that true joy & undeniable peace come when I am trying to live as Christ lives, one day at a time, one hour, one minute and even one tenth of a second in tune with the person he truly wants me to be.

In Websters terms,  the word accountable means an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one’s actions.  We live in a world where for some reason , no one wants to take responsiiblity for their own actions.  “I didn’t see that the light turned red”,  “the other person should of watched where they were going”,  my marriage ended in divorce because he wasn’t ‘t honest,  I was left alone in the parking lot after my car was hit, even though several people asked to help me”.  The natural man is quick to blame the other person or turn the responsibility to someone else.  It takes someone of high self-esteem & extreme humility to admit when they are wrong & give the other person the benefit of the doubt.

In the scriptures it speaks of accountability as being responsible for your own sins, and accountable for your own actions.  In the church of Jesus Christ  of Latter Day Saints we are taught in the second article of faith that men will be punished for their own sins and not for Adams transgression.

As a parent sometimes this is extremely difficult.  If we understand our own potential and our own self-worth, we can own our own mistakes, but its very difficult, especially with adult children to not want to take on their sins and their mistakes also.  It takes a very strong person to not want to blame ourselves & take accountability for our children’s sins and mistake. We often think we are doing them a favor, but this at times can enable them to rely on us too much and to expect us to save them.

The only person we can truly save is ourselves and the only person we can  truly repent for is ourselves.  We are accountable to teach our children correct principles and honor those principles.  If a child chooses a different path or makes different choices than we have taught them, we have to stay strong in our beliefs and teach by positive example, always remaining steadfast with outstretched arms and unconditional love.

Today I am accountable for what time I woke up, what I ate, who I served, who I smiled at or possibly frowned at.  Today was the only day that I was accountable for,  and tomorrow with all it’s ups & downs will be a new day of endless possibilities, with goals to set and dreams to dream of even a brighter tomorrow that will replace today and hopefully tomorrow with all its mysteries will hopefully reap some of my hard work today.

Dalai Lama

He said, “There are only two days in the year that nothing can be done.  One is called yesterday and the other is called tomorrow, so today is the right day to love, believe, do and mostly live.”













Two days ago our family dog Ryker was hit by a car and he died instantly.   I was not home at the time of the accident.  His death has caused me to look at life in a completely different way.

On Sunday night our family went for a walk.  It has been years since we have all  been on a walk together.    It wasn’t a perfect walk and things we’re said that were not perfect.  But we created a memory,  and it was our last memory  with Ryker.   Our last walk with Ryker will be a walk that we will always hold dear to our hearts ♥️.

Ryker came to our family as a free gift.  He was given out of love from Tyler’s in-laws.  Ryker was a dog that I never wanted, a dog that made me crazy A LOT.   But he was also a dog that I had learned to love on a level that is hard to explain.

Ryker loved to run.  Ryker loved to run with me.  It was probably his favorite thing to do.  However; most of the time when I took him, he would disobey and take off.  He’s almost died so many times that I can’t count.  He’s spent the night in the shelter more times than I like to admit, and he has caused me to question several times why I said we could have him in the first place?   My relationship with Ryker was like a a fast moving ship.  As long as he and I were on the ship moving in the same direction, we both were happy.  Ryker was so much like me, that I often wondered if I birthed him.

Ryker loved people, I love people.  Ryker loved to run, I love to run.  Ryker liked to eat, only when he needed it for energy. However; during his last few months of life, he was eating more and running less.  He was sad his last few months of life.  He was getting older  and he was not running as much and eating more.  Dogs are like people.  A body in motion stays in motion.  A body that lays in one place becomes stationary and will usually gain weight.

It’s amazing how much dogs are truly like us.   Most people do not feel good when  they sit around all day and eat too much.  The human body was meant to move and eat food to fuel the body.  Ryker was the happiest when he was eating healthy and running more.

The day before Ryker died our family had a little discussion whether we should take him on the walk.  Some of us agreed to take him, others did not want too.  The final verdict was decided by our newly returned missionary daughter and she decided in the affirmative.

Ryker is not a leash dog.  He hates leashes.  I don’t blame him.  I would hate to be on a leash too.  My oldest son Tyler took the task at hand and was in charge of the leash.  It was like watching a tug of war between a bull and a donkey.  But in the end the bull won and the donkey obeyed.  Ryker settled into his role and stayed on the leash the entire time.

Our family had a discussion about Ryker on the walk.  Some would call it a discussion, others would call it a debate, but to put it in layman’s term, it was a little bit of an argument.

In our family an argument consists of three people who are very head strong,  2 people who are peacemakers, one who remains completely quiet, and then me, who is the referee.  I hate being the referee.  I get put in the middle of things I don’t like, but in the end I usually make pretty good calls and I try to make sure everyone is ok.

As the referee, I have pondered over Ryker’s last walk.  What was he thinking?  Could he hear us talking about him?  Did he hear me stand up for him, or did he only hear the negetive things that I said about him?   Since dogs are like people, I believe he did hear what was said about him, and I bet it probably hurt his feelings.  I wonder if he went to bed that night feeling sad

If I could live that moment again.  Our family would not have argued.  We all would of chosen to say good things about Ryker, and he would of never died.  However; Ryker did die,  and we all are mourning his loss.

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MY TRIP TO SPAIN Sept 17, 2017

They say that to dream is a wish your heart makes when it’s fast asleep. To dream is to believe, and to believe is to know, and to know is to hope for things we cannot see. We dream of the blue ocean waters, the majestic mountains of Utah and the beautiful Montana sky.

Our hearts long to go to exotic places, African safaris and tropical beach paradises. Yet somewhere in all of these places, peace cannot always be found.

I have realized that my Spain is believing that I can get through one more day knowing that my children our safe, sleeping in my little twin bed at my parents home in Cedar City, Utah , seeing a butterfly in the middle of the day, to watch the sunset, and seeing the love in my granddaughters eyes👀

Today I went to Spain with Sydney and Easton Hogge. Sydney slept in my arms like a beautiful rag doll, she sat on my lap with her inquisitive eyes and she sang “Old McDonald Had A Farm” like a light brown haired Shirley Temple. Today I told Sydney that she was good for my soul. She told me that I made her heart happy.

This morning when she laid on my chest, time was of the essence. She smiled and said “I love you grandma” and I knew that I had just gone to Spain 1000 times in my dreams.

I went to church on Sunday with my two grandchildren. I chased Easton through the cultural hall, watched him run like his father, and got him to hold still on my lap for several minutes. Easton is blonde, brown eyed and so adorable that you want to look at him for hours. He never stops moving, doesn’t eat much and has two binki’s in his hands at all times. He’s a crazy boy with crazy dreams and when he says the word star ⭐️ it seems like nothing else matters.

Today I watched my oldest son be a father, I noticed how he looked at his wife Laura with love is his eyes, he carried the diaper bag to church like a rock star and the highlight of my day was to listen to him sing in the ward choir in Spanish. Tyler has done a lot of amazing things in his life, but watching him be a father to my grandchildren is definitely on my list of favorite things to do.

I believe that God sends angels into our lives to heal our broken hearts. He also sends angels to protect us, but he mostly sends angels to help us learn that through his tender mercies, we embrace the ability to be still and know that from a distance God is trying to teach us that Spain is really just a place we carry in our hearts.

I learned today that love is and always will be the strongest force on the planet.

As we step into the unknown we learn that we can be fragile and strong, terrified and brave all at the same time.

Today I went to Italy, Switzerland, Sweden Holland, Norway and of course Spain all at the same time. When my body stopped shaking and my eyes stopped crying, Spain became a memory I will cherish forever.

To love another person is to see the face Of God. Today when Sydney and Easton looked at me with their big brown eyes, I had the trip of a lifetime, and Spain became a memory I shall cherish always.

A Memory


Last Thursday I created a memory. I woke up at 6:00 am. and I thought about life for a while. I laid in my bed and wanted time to stand still. I thought about Austin and all the incredible things that he has done in his life, however, his greatest blessing is going to be his wife, Whitney.
I have tried to teach my boys that their wives are their greatest treasure. In marriage you become one with another human being. Marriage is a partnership with God. Marriage is never thinking your better than another person and it is always putting that persons needs before your own. Marriage is the greatest sacrifice a person will ever make. Marriage is believing that by loving another person, you become a better person.
Last Thursday morning Austin and Whitney were married. It was a beautiful day and I will never forget how I felt watching them kneel over an alter of God knowing that they
are sealed for time and all eternity.
It’s interesting how some people think that once their sealed, it’s all they have to do? Interestingly enough, it’s just the beginning of a journey of a lifetime.
Marriage is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Marriage is something that I am not very good at. Marriage has been hard for me.
However, if I were to look at the greatest day I ever had, my husband was with me. The worst day I have ever had, he was not there.
Wherever we go and whatever we try to become, doing it together is always the better way.
Whitney and Austin created a memory. They can create memories everyday for the rest of their lives. “If it is to be, it is up to me”. That is one of my favorite mottos. We get to choose the type of person we are going to be. Marriage is s choice. It is choosing to put the other persons needs before your own. It’s about love, sacrifice and devotion, and it is never about control.
Marriage is a partnership with God that creates a triangle. When that triangle is broken, air gets in and little holes start to develop. Once those holes get too big, it’s to hard to fix them.
It’s like a tire on a bike. When you get a hole in your tire, the only thing you can do is patch it. Once there’s too many holes in the tire, it wears out. The tire gives out and the bike can’t work anymore. Marriage is like a bike. If the holes get too big, they can’t get fixed. This is usually when the marriage starts to fall apart. Seperation takes place, and then eventually divorce will occur.
However, if the marriage is healthy, the bike will continue to work. The tires will get worn out, they may lose their tread and they may even get a flat. However, flats can be blown back up again, holes, however, never really go away. You can patch them, tape them, glue them and try to mend them, but the second the marriage has a problem, the hole opens up and the problem just becomes increasingly bigger.
I believe that Whitney and Austin have a strong bike. They’ve gone on lots of bike rides together and because of those bike rides, their journey is going to be full of beautiful memories to last a lifetime.
Last Thursday I danced with my son Austin for the first time. The song that we danced to was called “For The First Time” by Rod Stewart. I certainly hope it won’t be the last time I dance with Austin but I hope it’s the last time I ever dance with my single son. I want his marriage to last forever. Maybe the next time we dance together, there will be a little person in between us. Last Thursday I looked into his eyes and I knew that I had created something pretty special. Austin is my son. He is created in the image of his father, his earthly father is such an incredible part of his life, but he was created in his Heavenly Father’s image and with God as your creator, with parents who love and cherish you, and with Whitney as his eternal companion, there are endless possibilities for Austin to become the person God has always known he can be. Austin and Whitney have become one with God, and with God, nothing is impossible❤️

It’s The Little Things 🍃😊🍃


Today when I woke up I realized that every thought, every word and every action I take, I am responsible for.

What kind of a person am I going to be today?  Where is my heart?  What is my purpose and what really matters about today?

My thoughts were of the little things.  The things that we think don’t think really matter, but they matter more than words can possibly express.

It’s the view outside your window, the sun ☀️ that comes out every day, even if we can’t always see it.   The rainbow 🌈 that reflects God’s message that rain does have a purpose, and the moon 🌙 that creates a stillness in the evening, that our day did matter.

I have been in Bronson,  Missouri with my husband this weekend.  I don’t get to see him everyday because he works in Frisco, Texas and I live in Utah.  Because of this separation, I have come to cherish the little things.  The things that most people take for granted, the things that become second nature, and the things that make an ordinary day an extraordinary day.

When I wake up in the morning and he is lying next to me, I am truly blessed.  When I can hold his hand when no ones watching, and when his left hand covers his face when he is sleeping,  I feel safe.

I believe in the simple things.  The 4-wheeler rides, the walks around the neighborhood,  the morning prayers that we try to have as much as possible, but most of all I believe in his smile that melts my heart when he is truly happy❤

When big things happen and your life changes tremendously, it’s the little things you cherish the most.

A phone call, a text, a kind word, a sticky note on the mirror, a single rose, a warm hug, and most of all his presence  that takes my breath away.

I often wonder if God keeps track of the little things?  Does he know that deep in each of our souls we long for connection.  We strive to be noticed, to be valued and to be understood.  However, I believe that God knows our hearts 💕 and doing his will, matters even more than the little things.

I believe that sometimes we get so caught up in the big things, that we forget to cherish the little things.  The things that keep us grounded, the things that give us hope, and the things that we really can’t completely understand in this life.

So for today, I hope to smell a flower, give someone a compliment,  listen to a friend and give a stranger a hug.

I believe that the little things you do today may be opening the door for the bigger things that create a brighter tomorrow.  The big things matter, but they matter most if we cherish the little things first.

The penny that we pick up off the sidewalk, the dandelion that your grandchildren bring you from your garden and the prayer that you say on a strangers behalf.

Because at the end of the day we really don’t have a lot of control over other people, we can’t change their actions, we can’t change their behavior and we can’t change the outcome.  But we can change our own actions, our own thoughts, our own behavior, and we can truly change the feelings in our hearts❤.

We get so caught up in winning the lottery, losing 30 lbs, and buying the million dollar home, that we forget to be grateful for the little things.    The penny we save, the dessert we pass up at dinner, and the picture that we cut out of Better Homes & Garden of our dream home are truly the little things that really do matter.

So for today, I will save my pennies, smile at the sun, and bask in the goodness of the stranger who gave me a dollar to pay for my Diet Coke because I left my wallet in the car.












Today I woke up and the first thought I had was how grateful I am for my husband.  In the LDS religion we believe in getting patriarchal blessings.  When I was 14, I received my patriachral blessing.  I didn’t know much about them because their was no one in my family who had ever had  one before.

when I received a copy of my blessing and read it, it changed my life.  I have read it 100’s of times and I go back and reflect on it often.  The incredible words that are in it have changed me and guided my life in ways that I never thought possible.

There is s sentence in my blessing  that says:  “your husband will be a fortunate individual because you will love him very much”.  It also states  that I will be very close to my children and I will be able to help them tremendously  all of their lives.  Today I am so grateful for how much I love my husband and how much my relationship with him affects all the other relationships in my life.

when I see my children, I am so incredibly grateful for the  goodness that is in them.  The goodness that comes from God, the goodness that comes from their father and the incredible love that I am able to give them because of the love that Daren gives me.  Marriage is not easy, it is one of the hardest things I have ever done.  However, when it is done right, it is a beautiful thing.

When two people join together  in a marriage they begin a journey that is not theirs alone anymore.  Each step they take, each decision they make and each path they cross becomes stronger or weaker depending on the direction they take.   Marriage is like climbing a ladder.  You can  climb up, climb down or stay on the same step.  Whatever direction you take makes a difference in that person’s life.  The most beautiful thing about marriage is when the steps are taken with God at the top of the ladder both partners have the same goal and faith, hope and love lead them to the top.

To be grateful is being able to see the beauty, love and goodness that surrounds you and embracing all of the moments in your life that truly are gifts from God.






To Dream🎶

When I was a  little girl I used to dream that I wanted to be a professional singer. Little did I know that my family wasn’t very musical.  My mom doesn’t sing and doesn’t have a musical bone in her body.

However, my dad’s family has amazing vocal and performance skills.  My dad’s sisters used to perform and sing together and my grandma Turner played the ukulele and she also used to yodel.

I put all of my boys in violin lessons when they were young.  My daughter Kailee plays the harp and Blake and Tyler both have really good singing voices.  My husbands parents both used to sing in the ward choir and Daren’s mom had a really beautiful singing voice at one time.  I know she used to sing to him when he was little.  She loved Barbra Streisand and would sing her songs to him.  “The Way We Were” I believe was one of their favorite songs.

About six years ago I was put in a music calling in our ward.  This calling was the hardest thing I have ever been asked to do. It tested my faith on a level that I have never experienced.  However, I received a really strong promoting that I was susposed to accept the calling.  With God’s help , and a lot of faith and prayers on my behalf, I embraced the calling and ended up doing a really good job.  It changed me and made me want to become more musical.

My oldest son Tyler told me that the Lord qualifies people for their callings.  I do believe that was the case for me.  Ever since I’ve had this calling, my love for music has increased and I have tried to develop a desire to become more musically inclined.

I started taking voice lessons at the time I received the calling.   It was a stretch for me, but I was really reaching out of my comfort zone.  I did not stay with this voice teacher, because I knew she was not the right match  for me.  She did, however, teach me a lot, and her inspiration made me want to become a better singer.

In December, I found a new voice teacher. Her name is Katheryn.  I have grown to love her and trust her.  The only problem is my husband is working in Texas and she is in Utah.  I have been traveling back and forth from Texas to Utah during the past 3 month and taking lessons has been difficult.  I have felt this great need to still take lessons from her.  I can do a FaceTime lesson with her from Texas and I honestly think that I can make this work.

I don’t know why I am doing this, maybe it’s just to prove to myself that anything is possible.  I believe that a dream is a wish the heart makes ,and dreams sometimes do come true.

When Daren and I first met he used to play this song called “The Time Has Come”.  The chorus says, I’ve got this dream inside of me, and it knows no boundary, maybe it’s too big to satisfy, but I know now the time had come, to try.

So that’s what I’m doing, trying to fulfill a dream.  I’ve realized that my dreams are so completely different than my husbands dreams.  I just hope someday he will understand that even though we are married and are trying so hard to be one, my dreams are not the same as his dreams.  The things that make him happy are not the same things that make me happy.  However, because I love him, I am trying to support his dreams.  I pray that someday soon both of our dreams will come true and there will be moments where we both can truly understand the worth of both our souls is great in the eyes of God.

When words fail, music speaks.  Sometimes there are not enough words that can truly express how you feel, but a song can stir an emotion deep within our souls.  Music can change us and take us to a place that no one else has ever been🎶