I started off my morning teaching a 6:30 a.m. yoga class. I woke up tired and over-whelmed with things in my life that I just can’t seem to fix. I went to bed realizing all of my weaknesses and vowing to try harder to work on my strengths.
One of my strengths is yoga. I started practicing yoga about 16 years ago. It has become a part of my life that I hold dear to my heart. Yoga has transformed me into a better person. A person who likes her body and feels great joy moving in and out of varied positions that open up channels of awareness that I never thought possible.
I am 54 years old and most people do not believe that when they see me. I tell them that I have been practicing yoga for almost as long as I have had Kailee. I think each time I go into a yoga pose I am reminded of her and the sweet spirit that she has brought into my life. I became interested in yoga when she was about three. I started taking some classes at the local gym and found a connection to this practice that I had never achieved from any other form of exercise. When you have five children under the age of 13 , you grasp at anything you can find to create peace in the over-whelming pressures of motherhood.
Now that I am an empty nester , the yoga brings me peace in a different way. I used to go to a class to get away from the craziness of my life, now I go to a class to get away from the stillness that surrounds me.
We pray for the day when we can take a shower with no one needing us. Then that day comes when you can take four showers a day and no one would even know. I often wonder how God wanted mother’s to transform into being needed every second of the day, to hardly being needed at all?
I became a certified yoga teacher in 2011. I knew that someday when all my littles were big, that it would be a bigger part of my life. Yoga takes us to a place where no one has ever been before, a place of enlightenment, a place of learning and a continual knowledge that there is a God in heaven that truly watches over us. Today when I taught my 6:30 a.m. yoga class, I felt God’s presence and I knew he loved me. The song “Love Me, That’s All I Ask Of You” was playing on my playlist and I realized how much meaning that song has in my life.
When my twin boys were 4 months old I met my husband in Los Angeles California for a two night get-away from the intense responsibility of raising 4 small children. My husband was out of the Country a lot , and we so desperately needed a few moments together to remember why we were married and to be together without having to worry when the next little person would need us. We arranged for 3 of the children to go to grandma’s and one of the twins to go to a neighbors for the weekend. I flew to LA to meet my husband. He took me to the Play “Fantom Of The Opera” The song “Love Me, That’s All I Ask Of You” became a part of me. Every time I hear it I think of Him, and every time I listen to the words I think of the deep need that I have to be loved. “To love another person is to see the face of God”. To see the face of God enables us to love other people. If we love God first, our spouse second, our family third and put our work fourth, we will become disciples of Jesus Christ and we can truly be happy.
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