When I was a little girl I used to dream that I wanted to be a professional singer. Little did I know that my family wasn’t very musical. My mom doesn’t sing and doesn’t have a musical bone in her body.
However, my dad’s family has amazing vocal and performance skills. My dad’s sisters used to perform and sing together and my grandma Turner played the ukulele and she also used to yodel.
I put all of my boys in violin lessons when they were young. My daughter Kailee plays the harp and Blake and Tyler both have really good singing voices. My husbands parents both used to sing in the ward choir and Daren’s mom had a really beautiful singing voice at one time. I know she used to sing to him when he was little. She loved Barbra Streisand and would sing her songs to him. “The Way We Were” I believe was one of their favorite songs.
About six years ago I was put in a music calling in our ward. This calling was the hardest thing I have ever been asked to do. It tested my faith on a level that I have never experienced. However, I received a really strong promoting that I was susposed to accept the calling. With God’s help , and a lot of faith and prayers on my behalf, I embraced the calling and ended up doing a really good job. It changed me and made me want to become more musical.
My oldest son Tyler told me that the Lord qualifies people for their callings. I do believe that was the case for me. Ever since I’ve had this calling, my love for music has increased and I have tried to develop a desire to become more musically inclined.
I started taking voice lessons at the time I received the calling. It was a stretch for me, but I was really reaching out of my comfort zone. I did not stay with this voice teacher, because I knew she was not the right match for me. She did, however, teach me a lot, and her inspiration made me want to become a better singer.
In December, I found a new voice teacher. Her name is Katheryn. I have grown to love her and trust her. The only problem is my husband is working in Texas and she is in Utah. I have been traveling back and forth from Texas to Utah during the past 3 month and taking lessons has been difficult. I have felt this great need to still take lessons from her. I can do a FaceTime lesson with her from Texas and I honestly think that I can make this work.
I don’t know why I am doing this, maybe it’s just to prove to myself that anything is possible. I believe that a dream is a wish the heart makes ,and dreams sometimes do come true.
When Daren and I first met he used to play this song called “The Time Has Come”. The chorus says, I’ve got this dream inside of me, and it knows no boundary, maybe it’s too big to satisfy, but I know now the time had come, to try.
So that’s what I’m doing, trying to fulfill a dream. I’ve realized that my dreams are so completely different than my husbands dreams. I just hope someday he will understand that even though we are married and are trying so hard to be one, my dreams are not the same as his dreams. The things that make him happy are not the same things that make me happy. However, because I love him, I am trying to support his dreams. I pray that someday soon both of our dreams will come true and there will be moments where we both can truly understand the worth of both our souls is great in the eyes of God.
When words fail, music speaks. Sometimes there are not enough words that can truly express how you feel, but a song can stir an emotion deep within our souls. Music can change us and take us to a place that no one else has ever been🎶
<3 Heart Strings <3 